- Published on 11 April 2016
The writer wishes to stay anonymous
My dear Sri Sathya Sai Baba, please accept my koti pranams at Your Divine Lotus Feet!
Swami, when I had the golden opportunity to touch Your Lotus Feet, it was the most benevolent moment for my soul. The Feet of Swami were the softest and most compassionate ones I have ever touched!
On April 24th, 2011, I was as usual watching the news channel with anxiety and numbness, to get the latest news about Swami. At the same moment, I heard Swami’s voice asking me whether I would stop fighting or not, as a habit.
I replied (without knowing the next step), "Swami, if the circumstances are so testing as I am undergoing now, I cannot stop fighting."
For this Swami said, “I am leaving" . Then, at the same time the news flash came on TV that Sri Sathya Sai Baba had passed away. This was the darkest hour in my soul’s journey and a harshest blow to my "self".
Sometime later, I was called by one of the relatives to accompany her to Puttaparthi to have the last darshan of our beloved Swami. In Puttaparthi, while standing in the line and just entering the hall where Swami was lying, a bee stung me on the toe. I was thinking to myself, "What a moment is this? I am witnessing the last rites to my beloved God and Sadguru and I can never have such an experience ever after! 'Na bhootho, Na Bhavishyathi' (neither in the past, nor in the future)."
I asked my relative "What if Swami resurrects Himself after three days like Jesus Christ did ?". This would draw the entire world to Him and Swami will be the Emperor of the whole world. And so, April 27th, 2011 was the day I was waiting for. However, Swami did not resurrect Himself. His physical form was laid to rest.
I remembered many details from the few books that I have read about Swami:
- Swami will give “Sakshaatkara Darshanam” (Divine Vision) to devotees around the world at the same time, after the physical form has been laid to rest. (Incidentally, I was and still am praying to Him to give me “Darshan, Sparshan and Sambhaashan”).
- Swami had said that He would walk across the sky.
- In Shirdi, Swami was cooking spiritual food, in Parthi Swami will serve the food, and as Prema Sai, He will be Love, Love, and Love.
- Swami has said that the “Golden Age” was coming soon
I had visited Shri Halagappa’s Sai Ashram near Srirangapatnam some time back. I was very eager as I am now, to hear of Sai’s return as Prema Sai. One of the inmates said, Swami will come after 5 years, which is after April 24th, 2016. In the meantime, I had the chance to read about Sri Vasantha Sai and there was a mention about Swami’s coming back in Sri Sathya Sai form again.
Since last few days, Swami has been urging to me to do service and use my body for the benefit of others. By His Grace, I went to Puttaparthi last week and one of the senior sevadal members there passed on STKC website information and asked me to go through that. I need to mention here that I have the habit of asking questions to Swami and seek His answers through His books, for some years now. Many answers have come through correctly, provided my ego did not make any convenient interpretations about Swami’s answers. So this time I had asked Swami the following question:
“Swami, I was under the impression that You would give Sakshaatkaara Darshanam to devotees across the world after You left the physical form. But I read in the book written by Sreejith Narayan that You would come back in the Sri Sathya Sai Baba form again. Is this true? Please tell me, Swami! As this seems to be awesome and the most miraculous experience the earth will undergo. Please give me Your answer while I read this book” (I was reading the book “Story and Glory of Sai’s Mahasamadhi”.)
Then the following words leapt out of the book:
“Prema Mudita Manasey Kaho..” (With the heart and mind full of love and devotion...)
“Yes, God is Great”
I have tried my best not to interpret what Swami has said. But I feel that world needs a huge “Life Saving” dose of Swami’s Love to put an end to the threatening conflicts, violence and disharmony that prevails now. And the most compelling and powerful dose of Love, Faith, and Compassion can come from Sri Sathya Sai Baba’s re-appearance.
To another question, Swami said that the good news would come around the day of Sri Rama Navami (April 15th, 2016), and that things would be fine by Christmas this year. I have been requesting Swami to solve a long time problem that we are facing in our family, to which Swami said that He will wait until He can achieve ten things at the same time. And these questions were revolving around the spiritual transformation of some difficult members of my family.
At this point, I would like to recall an experience of one of the senior sevadals in Chennai which he had shared with me. He was walking in an otherwise less crowded underground railway station in Kolkata a few decades ago. He was questioning Swami in his mind "Swami is leading all the dark forces on earth. How can I have belief in Him ?". For this, he heard Swami’s voice echoing back, saying, "If Swami does not lead the dark forces, who else will?" This moved him to tears and he has remained steadfast to Swami ever since.”
We cannot imagine what the serpents, ghosts, and dark forces would do if they were not with Lord Shiva. Only because of Lord Shiva these evil forces around Him are under control.
Personally, I wish and pray that Swami re-appears on this earth and pours His Love into our parched hearts.
Samastha Lokah Sukhino Bhavanthu!
Jai Sai Ram!
Posted by Aanchal Sai Sharma & Sneha Sharma