From Sreejith Narayan to S.Narayan and back

Sreejith Narayan

Sairam and Happy Easter to all readers.

It was on the Easter day of 2012 that the first edition of "Sai Thy Kingdom Come" was released. It is very hard for me to believe that it has been only a year since the book came out. To me it felt like a thrill-ride with so many great things happening along the way. One of the things that makes me feel so happy is that because of the book I was able to interact with many great Sai devotees whom I once could only just dream of conversing with.

I have usually tried to keep emotions away from my writings because I always thought emotions cloud one's reasoning. But this post is a bit emotional as it speaks of my travails,  triumphs and Divine interventions while the book was being written.

I was initially not sure whether I should share this experience since it is personal and  certain things would make sense only on the basis of our individual relationship with Swami. So I went to the prayer room, closed my eyes and prayed to the Lord for direction. As I do on certain such occasions, grabbed a Sai book from the shelf and opened a random page to read a certain portion. My belief is that if the prayer is sincere, Swami will give a clue through the words in the book. The book I got hold of was "Baba The Universal Chancellor" written by my father Sri. E. Narayanan Kutty and among the words I read were "I had also seen with some devotees, things such as ring, bracelet, watch etc., given by Bhagawan Sri Sathya Sai Baba". I got the confirmation needed and decided to share this story. On why I took this as the confirmation, readers will come to know as the rest of the story unfolds.

A year ago, as the book was getting ready to be released via the internet, a thought passed through my mind that it wouldn't be prudent to put my name as the author since I was certain that Swami alone wrote this book. I had never written a book or a significant article before that and could not even dream of writing and publishing such a book. To me it stands as a testimony to the fact that when we leave everything to Him, anything is possible. Swami has clearly and often miraculously led me to all the materials that were needed. How it was completed in a matter of only three months is still beyond me and so it is to some readers, I have learnt.

Coming back to my mental conflict about the author name, on further contemplation, I felt if I did not put any name as the author, readers could misinterpret that I was hiding behind my convictions. So I decided to take the middle ground and use a pen name "S.Narayan", where the initial "S" could also denote "Sathya", indicative of "Sathya Narayan" (Swami's birth name) who really wrote this book. Thus the book was released with S.Narayan as the author.

During the period when the book was being written I was interacting a lot with a Sai student (we will call him SS for this article) who is a close friend and like a brother to me. It was important for me to get his opinion on certain things since maya the usual enemy played its occasional tricks, leading me to doubt whether the Sai world would accept such a book, that too, close to a year after the Maha Samadhi. During our conversations, my friend used to mention a certain Sai devotee in Hyderabad (we will call him HD) whom he considered a mentor and as having direct interaction with Swami. He explained some mind-boggling miraculous stories which clearly showed that this person indeed received direct messages from Swami. I did believe my friend since I trusted his wisdom and discrimination but the stories gradually faded into the background of other discussions surrounding the book. Once the book came out, again maya bore its fangs and I started doubting whether it was the right thing to do to publish my beliefs about Swami's return. My conviction was probably meant to be a silent and personal crusade and I questioned my own wisdom of dragging other devotees into it. I prayed hard to Swami for a confirmation that it was Him who brought forth this book. And confirm He did; that too with a thunderbolt of an incident. The moment I can never forget and can remember only with tears of joy rolling down my cheeks.

This happened only a few days after the book had been released and much before it really started doing rounds in the Sai Circles. One morning SS calls me to say: "Sairam brother, You are not going to believe this. Today HD Sir called and guess what he told me?". He started narrating their conversation (taken from memory).

HD:  Isn't it your friend who wrote the book about Swami's return?

SS:  Sir, how did you know that he is my friend?

HD: (No answer to the previous question) Why did he not put his full name in the book?

To my perplexed friend he continued.

HD:  Swami asked me to convey the following. "Tell him that I was with him all the while when it was being written. When I give gifts like rings or bracelets, devotees proudly wear them. That book is My gift to him. Ask him to proudly put his full name as the author". 

Upon hearing this I did not know how to react. Even now I have no words to describe the feelings that went through my mind at that moment. I did not want to ask anything further to my friend or gather minute details. I silently expressed my gratitude to my loving Lord and knew that I would never have to look back.  Soon the book was published with my full name "Sreejith Narayan".

As you may have already guessed, the reference in the random line I read in my father's book in the prayer room, to Swami giving rings and bracelets to devotees, gave me the confirmation to publish this article. The beautiful "gift" named "Sai, Thy Kingdom Come" that my dear Lord gave me on the previous Easter, was also re-affirmed in a dream He gave to my sister-in-law Milee who translated the book to Malayalam. She called me one day and explained her dream in which Swami said: "That book is the wisdom I granted to Sreejith Narayan".  Then a few days later, Swami again came in her dream and chided: "I did not say I granted him the book. I gifted it to him". In that dream Swami repeatedly mentioned the word "gift" as if to stress on that point. 

As to the question of why Swami did not give me the direct confirmation, I do not have a definite answer. But I do have some clues to that, which I will save for another post. As such, I am so happy to share this with all the readers. Thank you all for your love and wonderful support.


Anonymous2014-09-15 22:52#
Sreejith Narayan, we love you !!!

March 31, 2013 at 3:57 PM
Sreejith Narayan - STKC
Sreejith Narayan - STKC2014-09-15 22:52#
Thank you so much for your love. Love you too :-)

March 31, 2013 at 4:02 PM
Praphai Boonsermsuwong
Praphai Boonsermsuwong2014-09-15 22:53#
I believe each of us who came across your book, and read intensely the whole thing in one sitting, myself included... The process of doing so, is in itself a transformational gift from Swami... It's Sai-incidences that happened and will continue to happen more and more, the spiritual growth and progress are in full force because of your book! Never doubt that... Thank you Baba, for making Sreejith wrote such a wondrous book and follow through with spiritual awakening blogs!

March 31, 2013 at 9:09 PM
Sreejith Narayan - STKC
Sreejith Narayan - STKC2014-09-15 22:54#
Sairam dear Praphai, Thank you so much for your kind words. Your words mean a lot to me. Deepest gratitude to our dear Lord for allowing me to be a humble instrument.

April 1, 2013 at 8:05 PM
Anonymous2014-09-15 22:55#

This book is a gift that keeps giving! :). Thank you for sharing Swami's gift to you with all of us! Yes, I did notice the "S. Narayan" in the first iteration of the book, and then noticed that it had expanded to your full name subsequently. I received the book from a Sai friend just four days after its release. Immediately, I noticed that for someone that claimed never to have written a book earlier, this was a stupendous effort - in content, style, language and production. And, that led me to believe, right at the first read, that Swami must have had a hand in it :) [not to take away your efforts in it, by any means! - but you know what I mean, right?].

Thank you, and Thanks to Swami for creating such a joyous 'family feeling' via this book, let alone the hope and prayer that it has induced. Sairam


March 31, 2013 at 9:41 PM
Sreejith Narayan - STKC
Sreejith Narayan - STKC2014-09-15 22:57#
Sairam dear Lrao, It is Swami's hand alone :-)
I still remember you were one of the first few to email me. Thank you so much for the support and encouragement all the while.

April 1, 2013 at 8:16 PM
sai  manoj
sai manoj2014-09-15 22:58#
Sairam brother,by divine grace of SWAMI you do a wonderful work to write this SAI THY KINGDOM COME.Your book is "OASIS in SAI WORLD".SWAMI give you a lot of blessings and Love.Time is very near.We await SWAMI'S return in the silence of complete surrender... jai sairam.

April 1, 2013 at 4:25 AM
Sreejith Narayan - STKC
Sreejith Narayan - STKC2014-09-15 22:59#
Thank you dear brother Sai Manoj for your kind words and spreading the word about the book. Sairam.

April 1, 2013 at 8:19 PM
Anonymous2014-09-15 23:00#
Again confirmation SWAMI has chosen a perfect vessel
and Witnesss THE KINGDOM OF SAI then only PEACE
LOVE and DHARMA will reign as SUPREME TRUTH -
SATHYA SAI - blessed are those indeed

Sai Dav

April 1, 2013 at 8:57 AM
Sreejith Narayan - STKC
Sreejith Narayan - STKC2014-09-15 23:00#
Thank you dear Sai Dav ji. Jai Sai Ram.

April 1, 2013 at 8:22 PM
J. Bruni
J. Bruni2014-09-15 23:01#
I can't understand how is it possible that "devotees" doubt and do not admit the possibility of His return.

Note that I mentioned the POSSIBILITY.

This behaviour, in my opinion, reveals closed mind and cold heart. Are they true devotees?

This post reminded me of the book "My Baba and I", written by John Hislop. When I read the TITLE, it sounded a bit egoistic to me... But you know: it was Swami Himself who dictated this title to Hislop, as the author reveals!

Likewise, Sreejith felt that signing the full name as author would be egoistic... but then comes Swami Himself, in one way or another, to make us think otherwise!

To think of Swami, write about Swami, remember Swami's love is what makes our lives worthy. This is why I am always returning to this blog, eager for new posts, and new comments.

Thank you.

April 10, 2013 at 1:17 PM
Sreejith Narayan - STKC
Sreejith Narayan - STKC2014-09-15 23:02#
Sairam dear J, As you indicated, with Swami anything is possible. We have learnt over the years to always expect the unexpected! Thank you so much for your support and being a regular visitor to this blog.

April 11, 2013 at 4:31 PM
Anonymous2014-09-15 23:02#
Sreejit Ji as you have been in contact with advanced devotees/sai students after this marvelous revelations, may be from Prashanti or else where , Kindly put their opinions , views, experiences or intuitions abt Swami's coming back in Sathya Sai Form in this blog


Bodhisatwa Mohanty

April 12, 2013 at 11:55 AM
Sreejith Narayan - STKC
Sreejith Narayan - STKC2014-09-15 23:03#
Sairam dear Bodhisatwa, I will try to put together something like this. Problem is that no one says anything clearly. For example I heard one Divine soul said "Swami has tied our tongues" meaning he is not supposed to reveal anything he knows.

April 16, 2013 at 9:21 AM
Anonymous2014-09-15 23:04#
Yes Sreejith Ji. I have also read somewhere that Swami had given some instructions to some old ladies (not remember the exact but may be 4 nos)not to divulge abt His Planning after Mahasamadhi. btw if possible pls try your best.

Lots of Love


April 23, 2013 at 9:54 AM
Jim Martineau
Jim Martineau2014-09-15 23:04#

October 4, 2013 at 8:36 PM
sanita hira
sanita hira2014-09-15 23:05#
Thank you, Sreejith for sharing this book with us! I truly believe every word uttered by our loving mother Sai! I await almost impatiently for HIS return. I love and join you in your prayer. Swami, please, please, come back to YOUR children.

March 3, 2014 at 6:18 AM
S.NAGARAJAN2015-01-12 08:29#
Sairam! Inscrutable is the way of Swami. If we can emphasise that Swami will do this and that, it shows us our shear stupidity. We can never measure the sky. How can we measure the magnificence of the Lord who created the sky?
Ana Diaz-Viana
Ana Diaz-Viana2015-01-20 07:36#
Dear Sreejith,

I always admired your strong resolution, courage and conviction to release a book that is still stirring the Sai world! Reading your story today brought tears to my eyes, because now I know how you struggled to step out of your life and boundaries and embark on this journey. After more than 30 years of listening to Swami stories and miracles, I am still overwhelmed by the dimension of the Divine Grace He showered on you. You are the evangelist of His return!
Sai Love and continuous blessings !
Sreejith Narayan - STKC
Sreejith Narayan - STKC2015-01-20 19:04#
Sairam dear Ana, Not a moment passes by without remembering Him in gratitude for this Divine Grace. He gave the book and the website and along with it, all the love and support from divine souls like yourself to sustain and augment them. Thank you for all the love and blessings.
BRUNO2017-01-15 14:53#
Muchas Gracias Sreejith por compartir algo tan íntimo y maravilloso con todos Nosotros ... La recibo con Mucho Amor !!! Abrazos de Luz , OM SAI RAM !!!

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